Friday, July 31, 2009


Epiphany - a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

I just experienced one.
I have one person to thank.
Jiaqi Fan, you made me realize something that I was too ignorant to notice before.
I'm changing, for the better.
I now am getting a general idea of who my "friends" really are.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Aw yeaaaaahhhh.

Hella good weekend tho.
I won both of my races on saturday =]
Talked to bestfriend all weekend which is always a plus.
Happy mother's day everyone btw.
I've just been having good days lately.

Today I had the craziest dream ever.
So I walk to where my pool is and guess what's in it..
I was like =O.
I had a fucking pet whale.
Then my brother walks out and the fucking whale like launches him into the air.
It was fucking insane.
At first I was scared of it but then I got along with him and we became friends.
His name was Willy =]

Saturday, May 9, 2009


I've been having good days lately.
I've been somewhat happy too.
Talking to the bestfriend on the phone today made my day =].
She's so adorable haha.
I need money so I can go visit family and shit.
I hella wanna see everyone.
Hopefully bestfriend is back from Hawai'i by the time I go up there.
Enough blogging.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

I want an uke now.

Diane I blame you for getting me obsessed with the ukelele.

Swine flu that turns you into a zombie.

First - Pigs infect us with swine flu
Third - Pigs gain intelligence and wipe out the human race
Fourth - Pigs create own form of government and replace the human race
Fifth - John Connor comes back to life and WIPES THOSE MOTHERFUCKING PIGS OUT.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Be careful what you wish for.

I always used to throw the phrase 'I wish something bad would happen to my dad.'
I really regret saying things like this.
My dad was in a car accident yesterday.
It wasn't insanely bad but it could've been way worse.
I feel as if I have some responsibility for thinking the way I did.
It's crazy how you can say things and feel like you want them so bad. Then once they do happen you regret ever saying anything.
I honestly wouldn't know what I would do without my dad.
As much as he annoys me and the bullshit he does.
He's still my dad.
I really hope he's gonna be alright..

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I'm sad.

Last night I dreamt that I was with family.
I miss everyone.
I just started thinking about how lonely I really am here.
Mom's always at work.
Dad's always drinking.
My sister is young and wouldn't really know.
I really need a trip up to the bay baaaadly.
I woke up crying because of my dream.
I wish I was with everyone up there.
I fucking hate bakersfield.
I'm gonna hate taft.
I hated shafter.
I haven't been truly happy in about six years.
I fucking hate this.
I wanna move back up there.
I'm gonna finish high school and go back up there for college.
No matter fucking what.

Saturday, April 11, 2009


MF DOOM helps me get by.
I need to do something.
Get out of this damn house.
I really need a trip up to the bay mann.
No money tho.
I would save up for it but what's the point.
My dad will probably take the money and go get drunk with it =/
Meh whatever.
I'm pretty much talking to myself since no one reads this.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Fucking great.

I shouldn't be awake.
My dad is drunk off his ass singing loud as fuck.
I'm so tired of his shit.
Worthless fuck.

Friday, April 3, 2009

I cried today.

More than once.
It felt good to release emotions that I've been hiding.
Found out that I'm getting evicted on the 23rd of this month.
And my birthday's on monday.
Happy birthday to me.
I wish that I was back in the bay area.
Where I know that people care about me.
I have no one here.
My mom but she's never home
And my dad always giving me shit for anything possible.
I'm tired of all this.
I wish I could just fast forward all this shit.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Spaceships don't come equipped with rear-view mirrors

CST testing is lamee.
Pretty easy tho.
If only I didn't have so many kids that are SLOOWWWWW at taking the damn test.
And my damn teacher wont let me use my iPod =/
It's all good tho.
Ahhhh I wanna shave my mustache so I look like Hitler but nahh.
It would be funny but it wont grow back right away.
I'm weird haha.

Saturday, March 21, 2009


Hacking my phone is fun.
Gives me something productive to do I guess.
I hate being stuck at home every fucking weekend.
Why can't my dad be less paranoid.
It's like he's the kid and I'm the parent haha.
I only got one F on this report card.
I'm suprised, I didn't do shit this quarter and passed 5 of my classes with at least a D =o
Things are changing.
For the better.
And I'm not just bullshitting this time.
Serious business.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

It's amazing.

I'm a monster, I'm a killer.
I know I'm wrong.
I'm a problem that'll never be solved.

Haaah so CAHSEE today and tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
Gah I need a trip up to the bay baadly.
I hella wanna see everyone.
I wonder why I can never sleep on sunday nights.
It's weird.

Saturday, March 14, 2009


First blog and I'm pissed.
Worthless fuck of a father had to take all the money I had.
And I was supposed to get a new phone not only cause I want one but I NEED it.
This one can't make calls and randomly turns off.
But alcohol is obviously more important then the needs of a child.
Meh whatever.
I'll probably post another blog in a bit after I cool off.